My Life is Not My Own!

I have been thinking a lot about the passion God placed in my heart for so long about missions. I have often wondered what purpose it played in shaping me especially, because it was so hard to let go of that dream and become satisfied in being a missionary with my own children and the people God surrounded me with. It took 3 years before I quit fighting Him and became content with the role He had given me. He does not "need" me, although I am called to obedience to go make disciples of men... He may use me as a willing vessle but I can assure you the God who created Heaven and Earth does not NEED me! If I cannot be faithful in my own home, a peacemaker a discipler in my own home what makes me think I should be investing all my time elsewhere. The Lord has graciously shown me bits and pieces of how that desire shaped me and one is the willingness and reminder that my life is not my own. He may totally change my game plan at anytime, anyplace, and anywhere AS LONG AS IT LINES UP WITH SCRIPTURE!!! There are many plans I make for my life that do not line up with His plans...but I still chose to Surrender All!!! (This was the exiting hymn in our wedding!)